Crap, I’m Old

So on Wednesday I sent my “baby” off to kindergarten. I’ve been majorly depressed all week. My husband doesn’t get it. I’ll never send a child off to school again; this is it. My day has come and gone. We stopped after two kids and I’m fine with that. It’s just a bittersweet realization.

As a parent you look forward and encourage the “firsts.” There’s the first smile, the first time they roll over, first time they walk, potty, etc. Parents celebrate those. And I know there will be other “firsts” as the kids get older, but this one was hard on me. This was the first “first” that I dreaded. I’ll be a basket case at her prom, for sure.  

She just seems so small and unprepared. I swear she was just born yesterday. I know she’s ready and I know that, as my daughter, she will conquer the world. I guess it’s just hard for me to let go. It sucks to get old.